Tuesday
19 March – If I have anymore blood taken I’ll probably be dead
I woke up in a pool of sweat this morning (so
gross, not sure why I’m sharing this but I want this to be a very honest
account of my life with lupus so here you go) so yeah I woke up in a pool of
cold sweat, shivering my ass off.
This happens pretty much every morning and
sometimes I wake up 3 or 4 times a night completely drenched – I have to get
up, get clean and dry, get back into bed and then it happens allll over
again.
Since being diagnosed with Lupus I don’t
think I’ve had a full nights sleep. But
this morning was especially severe.
Anyways I also woke up with very sore lips – right in the corners is so
dry and scabby (oh wow I am so attractive).
I think this is a sign of anaemia – luckily I’ve got a series of blood
tests tomorrow and that’s one of the things they will be checking. Wouldn’t surprise me if I am anaemic
too. Oh well, we’ll see.
I’ve lost count of the amount of blood tests
I’ve had. I go to the Lupus unit every 3
months and usually have around 15 vials of blood taken. Good thing I’m not afraid of needles
really!
Oh god and once I had to have this test to
check that my muscles weren’t wasting away and they inserted needles into my
muscles and then ran an electric current through the needles. They should use
it as a form of torture. The bruises I
had afterwards were horrific! Thankfully
my muscles were ok but I weren’t!
I was on a drug last year called Azathioprine
which is type of chemotherapy and it was awful.
I had to have a blood test twice a week to monitor my white blood
cells. It was just so long, leaving work
to go and wait in the waiting area of the hospital for like 2 hours at a
time. Luckily my boss is really good
about it all. I don’t know what I’d do
if he was an arse. This drug also had
horrible side effects; I ended up in hospital because it basically ruined the
inside of my stomach. My hair got really
thin and I ended up having it all cut off into a pixie cut. I also dyed it purple…looking back I think I
went a bit mad. Maybe it was a symptom of post traumatic stress disorder after the needles in my muscles. Thankfully I stopped
that medication, I couldn’t deal with the side effects so I was then put on
something called Mepacrine which can cause your skin to go yellow and it also
causes pink tears – I think that’s quite cool though. Sami said I’m weirder
than Nikki Minaj. I found that highly insulting. She has the biggest arse in the universe and is not even good weird - she's just scary weird. The Mepacrine worked well for quite a while – I was flare up free for
about 4 months. I stupidly thought ‘oooh
yey, lupus has gone away’. Defo not working any more.
The purple pixie cut: Defo went mad there.
The purple pixie cut: Defo went mad there.
As you may know from my recent posts, I haven’t been well for a long time now so I’m sure this medication is doing it’s job any more. I’ve looked at the other options and unfortunately there aren’t many. There are two other drugs that have good results but they also cause infertility which I’m not really feeling at this age…especially with all the other problems I may face with regards to pregnancy. There’s one more option which is a fortnightly infusion. I’m going to discuss with my consultant next time I see him. I’ve heard it’s very expensive so they might say no because I’m not sure my lupus is considered severe enough to warrant such expensive medication. But if you don’t ask ya don’t get and all that.
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